Sometimes life seems a bit like the monkey bars and you wonder if you will be able to hang on! I sometimes feel like if I fall that I fail but that isn't the truth it's part of the journey. It may be disheartening but doesn't end the journey just makes you realize that you need some help. Personally I want to be able to do it on my own even though I know that I can't. Last week was really hard for me and I felt so stuck and dangling with my grip slipping. Things are happening that I can't control on all fronts and I'm not getting what I had hoped to accomplish done. I needed and need a Savior from myself and my shortsightedness. James 4 comes to mind, "What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don't they come from your desires that battle within you?" Last week's fight was internal but was a fight none the less and it was because of my desires and plans the were not happening. I got lost in them and felt like I was failing and couldn't change a thing. We didn't come to the Philippines for ourselves so why was I making it about us now? I can make all sorts of excuses for my desires and plans are not bad but obviously not are not part of His for us right now at least. Submitting is tough but I don't want to make life about me so I need to choose each day to make it about Him. For Christmas one year I asked for a remote control car and didn't get it but at the Byker Christmas party my cousin got one. I said I wants it but Sam gets it. Still to this day we joke about it but the truth is that I was so focused on getting a remote control car that it spoiled all the other gifts that I did get. I don't want that to happen again so God take us where you want us to be and lead us each day!